Ok – that headline sounded way better in my head and now that I’ve seen it written down, it makes me cringe but I’m running with it because you know I love a pun, even a bad one. So, yes, the #bodypositivity movement has been wonderful and I’m so inspired by the likes of Nat over on Style Me Sunday and the Body Posi Panda for everything they are doing to encourage us all to embrace our bodies. That being said, I don’t want to forget about fitness and health in all this.
It’s just over a year since I had my second baby and I’d be lying if I said I was 100% happy about the way my body looks. Even saying that makes me feel like a traitor to the sisterhood but I’ve never been this heavy and so, I’m going to lose it and get back to where I was. It’s not that I want perfection, but I do want to be comfortable. I’m not striving to be a size 0; I’m just striving to fit back into the clothes I own. I’m not driven by a desire to look like those unattainable images of femininity; I’m driven by a desire to not have to buy a whole bunch of bigger clothes.
But it isn’t just about the clothes I own, or the way I look; what I am driven by is making sure I’m healthy. Since having my second, I feel unhealthy. There’s no other way to describe it. I’m stiff and achy when I wake up, I have a weak lower back but it’s bothering me more and more, I can barely run without wanting to sit down and sink a milkshake and don’t get me started on walking up the escalator.
I’ve given a million excuses as to why I haven’t had a chance to get back to full fitness. Time, kids, work, ‘I’ll do it when we’ve got an au pair’, cleaning, laundry…but that’s all they are. Excuses. The simple fact is – I need to get my unhealthy ass out there. It will hurt and it’ll feel shit and then eventually, it’ll start to feel better. Lugging this extra weight around isn’t helping my back, my knees (I dislocated my left patella 17 times before I was 21) or my mental health. I feel old and that makes me feel sick. And scared.
The thing is, I want my kids to see me exercising and eating well. I want them to see me running around with them as they grow up; I want to be able to throw them in the air. I want to be able to throw their children in the air. I want to be a physically present and able parent and, eventually, a grandparent because here’s the thing: I can just about get away with it now but when my kids are having kids, there’ll be no getting away with it then. Getting fit now is an investment in my later life.
So, let’s all hear it for #bodypositivty but let’s also remember that we need to be fit and healthy. We need to be comfortable in our skin and maintain a body that will allow us to keep going well into our later years. I’m back in the hot yoga studio, I’m working the MumHood programme and I’m really focussing on eating well…again thanks to the ace MumHood nutritional plan.
It’ not about what you look like, it’s about what you feel like. Be honest, do you feel as great as you’d like to feel? If not, maybe it’s time to bank some fitness for later on.